-Sigh- Another pointless, unproductive day. Didn't get anything done and it's already 9:18 now. Arggg... I'm still hopelessly doing history homework right now. SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME FROM THIS ENDLESS TORTURE!!!
I disappoint myself so much. Every day, I plan out my tasks, but nothing ever goes that way. Something always happens. I either get distracted and stop doing work or something gets in the way of my doing something. It's very frustrating and I just wish everyday would be like what I plan it to be. For example, I could participate more in english class. I always vow to, but I never really do so. My hand only raises itself one or two times, sometimes even none. I always try to get home early, preferably at 4:30, but the M22 and the trains never seem to work out perfectly fine. Like today, I got out of school at 3:30 exactly because I went to my locker early, hoping to catch the M22 at 3:37. And I did, but the bus got caught in traffic and I ended up missing my R train, leading me to wait until about 4:05. Transferring to the N at Pacific/Atlantic wasn't such a big deal. The N is usually pretty cooperative because it comes on time and everything, but the N I rode today was going to go express from 8 ave and on, skipping Fort Hamilton. SO I had to get off at 8 ave and wait about another ten to fifteen minutes for the next N train. Getting off after one stop, I remembered I had to go to the library to pick up these books I reserved for my english research paper, which I HAVEN'T started yet, so I had to walk about six blocks, chugging my heavy bookbag along. UGHH What a pain trying to get home early!
So I got home at 5, which isn't so bad, but isn't good either. After some food and whatnot, I had already wasted about three hours and it was already eight. I had to eat dinner, and now I'm here typing this because I'm bored and history doesn't fit my mood right now, even though I know it has to be done sooner or later. I also have an English test tomorrow. Still need to study for THAT, and I'd probably end up sleeping at 11 earliest.
Tomorrow will definitely be a BETTER day, if not great. And if it's not better, then I'd make it be. I will. I really hope so. Oh, I don't know.
Besides all that, I've been ignoring Nicholas ever since last Friday and he's been IMing me almost everyday, trying to get me to respond, but I haven't and I probably won't ever. I guess I just don't need him as a friend because he's caused me so much trouble since the first time we met. My grades were literally suffering because of him and I started getting 70s. My days were getting lousier because he would be on Aim 24/7, always talking to and distracting me. Gosh, it's a long story after that and I don't feel like talking about it right now. Probably some other day, though I must say that I kind of forgot what exactly happened between us. Whatever. I guess it's better to forget those things anyway.
LKT
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